once provoked to open up i can't help but feel the need to open up completly and flood my surrounding with honesty and all the things i never told before.
well - no anticipation no reason to be scared - i won't.

my reason to NOT like it at all: although i can prevent myself from ringing doorbells and telling most personal stuff there's this leak somewhere and definitly never dare to tell someone/probably will hurt them thoughts keep slipping through. and i need to find a shelter somewhere, where they can do no harm to whomever will read/listen and basically, foremost will not harm me and the fragile tower and garden that patronize me.